Ah. “No,” Theo agreed shakily, now that he understood why Greengrass had laughed. “No, that doesn’t.” He huffed a laugh of his own, and had almost managed a wan smile before he ducked his gaze downwards again to better hide the sorrow that washed over him after. And he and Cash might not have ever talked as much as they should have, but he was slowly realising that he had still talked more to Cash than he had to anybody else. Been more open. Been better. Been more himself. He didn’t know how that had happened, and he didn’t know how to be any of those things with anyone else. Maybe it made sense that he was floundering without him.
Greengrass’ offer, unexpected and undeserved as it was, made Theo actually straighten up slightly and glance up again. Looking at his hands, he blew out a slow, steadying breath. It helped reorient him, just a little. He inhaled and exhaled again, until the urge to sob had subsided, just enough, and then looked at Greengrass properly. Didn’t quite meet his eyes, but close.
The most surprising thing of all was that Greengrass really did seem sincere. It felt like there was maybe an escape route from here, after all. He wasn’t sure it would work, but even having a sliver of a chance was something. So – “Thanks,” Theo said, the force of his gratitude winning out over embarrassment. “Really, thank you.” (Well, mostly winning out – there was still ruefulness written all over his face as he said it, to add silently: and I’m really sorry for all this.)
Greengrass’ offer, unexpected and undeserved as it was, made Theo actually straighten up slightly and glance up again. Looking at his hands, he blew out a slow, steadying breath. It helped reorient him, just a little. He inhaled and exhaled again, until the urge to sob had subsided, just enough, and then looked at Greengrass properly. Didn’t quite meet his eyes, but close.
The most surprising thing of all was that Greengrass really did seem sincere. It felt like there was maybe an escape route from here, after all. He wasn’t sure it would work, but even having a sliver of a chance was something. So – “Thanks,” Theo said, the force of his gratitude winning out over embarrassment. “Really, thank you.” (Well, mostly winning out – there was still ruefulness written all over his face as he said it, to add silently: and I’m really sorry for all this.)