Rediscovering what she had done had broken Melody more than the initial fall out had. In retrospect, she was able to recognize every mistake of that night and how wrong she'd been about him. Had she trusted him and explained the situation while he was sober he might've been willing to elope regardless. Ben might not have needed the boost that the potion provided if it was meant to save her from ruin. But, she hadn't trusted him and had ruined his life, and he thought she wanted to forget that.
She folded and unfolded her hands as she fought to gain control of her thoughts. If they were to have a genuine conversation then there could be no emotional outbursts. They had to remain level and focused on actively listening to one another. "I don't want to forget what I did." Melody replied. "It's one of those things that you carry with you, that you remember as a reminder to never make a mistake of that caliber again. I don't mean that using a potion on anyone has ever been a thought outside of that night ... I just ... it's not something I would want to forget, is all." She finished a bit awkwardly and was unable to continue meeting his eyes.
She folded and unfolded her hands as she fought to gain control of her thoughts. If they were to have a genuine conversation then there could be no emotional outbursts. They had to remain level and focused on actively listening to one another. "I don't want to forget what I did." Melody replied. "It's one of those things that you carry with you, that you remember as a reminder to never make a mistake of that caliber again. I don't mean that using a potion on anyone has ever been a thought outside of that night ... I just ... it's not something I would want to forget, is all." She finished a bit awkwardly and was unable to continue meeting his eyes.