Greengrass,

I'll admit that I never really considered much how you felt for your family. In hindsight it makes more sense: even without the explanations of my pants and your brother and worrying about how you would care for them if your heart was broken, you've always cared so much that it never made sense for you to hold your family in such low esteem. I hope you'll tell me about them sometime.

And you're right. I do care about you, and I have no plans to break your heart. I think there's only one occasion where I've been the one to end things with someone, but usually it's them. Sometimes I think I bore them, or maybe it's that I come on too strongly too quickly. I suppose I've always had this idea that I have to cram an entire relationship into a short period of time because I don't have faith in love the way some do. Love in my family has always had to be earned—it's never given freely. I know I almost scared you off, too, but if you have it in your mind that you'll still want to be with me in six months, maybe I won't feel so urgent. I know it sounds ridiculous—I wouldn't blame you for laughing at me.

I know things are changing, but I don't want them to change the way you look at me. At the beginning it was physical, but it was never just physical.. Does that make any sense? Even if it had been mere physical attraction, I would have reached this point by now anyways. I've never met a man who I can feel the need to protect in one moment, and in the next can make me feel like I've been left without a shield by sheer stubbornness alone. It's so maddening, yet so charming.

To answer your question: The Inverness home doesn't have anti-apparition charms. Individual rooms do, but if you have no intention of visiting my mother or my father's private study I don't think it's anything you should be concerned about. I can agree to the no-kissing rule, but you can't deprive me of touches. I promise not to do anything that would beg questions.

Yours,
V. Macnair

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