"Now seems the only time to air them." Even as she said it she sounded defeated. "I want to be at peace for once, Ella, I don't want to die with regrets. I have so many, if I can get rid of some of them then maybe I'll feel better about it all." Her newfound honesty was certainly cathartic thus far, although she had mixed feelings about the letter she'd written to Thom. She had finally been completely honest with him - or at least honest enough that her conscience was satisfied - but she was struggling to accept the fact that she'd die never knowing how it had been received. She'd never know if he'd remember her fondly or resent her for making him feel obligated to forgive her because she was dead. The only thing she could really do was force herself not to think about him.

"But I am tired..."

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