Another day down and I'm just praying no news is good news. I didn't expect to hear from you, but perhaps a small part of me hoped you'd be afforded a brief window of time to write. I know it's silly because I know it's important that you focus, but I can't help but to wonder and worry.

I spent the morning trying not to think about you and so therefore purposefully didn't write anything down. Instead I cleaned my room from top to bottom and rearranged my entire bookshelf. It is now quite nicely ordered alphabetically by author and I found some books I haven't read in a long while, perhaps one of them will hold my attention and keep my mind busy. Mother was rather impressed to say the least. I'm trying not to give her a hard time and not look miserable and worry her either. It's very tiresome.

Most fortunately I was able to spend some time earlier this evening with my friend Marlena. She came to visit for dinner. Do you know how hard it is to keep this secret? I've learned my lesson from last time, don't worry, but she and I have been friends since first year, it's hard not to share. It'd be so much easier if I could see you, then I wouldn't feel so antsy.

Some day, indeed. I miss you, be safe tonight.