It was frustrating that Hudson could do something like call him a child and then just announce that he needed time, thereby shutting down the conversation, and now if Don Juan protested it he was being the unreasonable one. It was frustrating that when Don Juan wanted to avoid an argument he was accused of being duplicitive, or of running away to get high, but when Hudson did it he was being the responsible, mature one of the pair. It was another one of those things that made it feel like he'd never break out of this perception Hudson had of their relationship — that no matter what he did between now and then, Hudson might levy the same criticism about his acting like a child in an argument a year from now, three years from now, five years from now.

There was nothing to say except yeah, fine, sure. There was no other acceptable response to a request that was, on its surface, so unobjectionable... but Don Juan was practically vibrating with irritation and he didn't want to just let this go down as yet another occasion where Dean had graciously been the mature one and Don Juan was once again digging himself out of the doghouse. So he didn't say yeah, fine, sure, but what he did say was probably not winning him any points towards being seen as the more mature one. "Fuck off," he said, rolling his eyes.

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