"No, it's not. I fucked it up because I broke my own rules, and it still eats at me, for fuck's sake Dempsey." He'd been in a fog of annoyance and pissed off just like he was now. No communication, just trying to will his way into getting what he wanted and it hadn't worked, obviously. It could have very well made things exponentially worse or ended them if they hadn't been able to somehow right themselves. "I don't know what else to say or do to get you to understand that. If you really cannot or do not understand, I'm at a loss." He held his hands up in surrender, tone miserable.