Ford watched Cash; watched his fingers twitch, watched how his neck moved when he swallowed, watched where his eyes were going. His description felt like a nightmare to Ford. Not being able to trust your own senses, not knowing what was real — horrific, but maybe this also explained some of how Cash acted in society. Maybe people thought he was aloof because he took his time responding; trying to sort out what someone should have felt or thought or said in this situation from things inside himself he couldn't trust. Ford wished he'd known Cash better in school, before they'd tried to fix him — he had a sudden pang of grief and longing for this now-dead version of Cash. But there was also a ferocity to the grief; a determination not to let the rest of him go the same way. Earlier tonight, when he'd first been trying to wrap his mind around what Cash might have intended after he left, Ford had wondered if he had any right to stop him when he didn't understand what Cash was going through. He still couldn't understand, but now that he knew more about it — now that he knew it was something done to him, not just something that had happened for reasons no one would ever understand — he was not going to let them win.
"That's only going to make it worse," Ford said, about not eating. He may have never dealt with anything even close to what Cash lived with on a daily basis, but he felt confident saying that nothing was going to be improved if Cash was starving himself while trying to work through it.
"We've got soup in the icebox," he said, business-like. He squeezed Cash's foot. "Back in five minutes. Don't move."
"That's only going to make it worse," Ford said, about not eating. He may have never dealt with anything even close to what Cash lived with on a daily basis, but he felt confident saying that nothing was going to be improved if Cash was starving himself while trying to work through it.
"We've got soup in the icebox," he said, business-like. He squeezed Cash's foot. "Back in five minutes. Don't move."
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