It was worse than he thought. Theo's hand fell away and Cash pressed his own fingers into the sponsor's desk, hard, trying to get some feeling into them. It was worse than he thought. These middle class men, with their — fathers who loved them, and the sense that this was wrong. Why couldn't everyone just be like the Lestranges, and accept that this was inevitable?
"My father," Cash started. He swallowed. "There are — consequences for disobeying my father."
He dug his nails into the top of the desk. Not enough to gouge it, but enough to whiten the skin of his fingertips from the pressure. He had to stay here, in this conversation, grounded. How was he ever going to marry her if he couldn't do this?
There was a conversation he didn't remember. He'd only really explained this once before, and he'd been half-drunk and his palms were sweating, and it hadn't felt nearly as close. Seven years ago, maybe, when he was nineteen and he wasn't broken yet and Quidditch had felt forever.
"I swore a Vow when I was seventeen," Cash said, haltingly. But after that the words spilled out all at once, a sad panicked rush.
"And it felt like my only option, because — you don't leave the Lestrange family. I'll be under my father's thumb —" he'd said this before, it echoed in his mouth "— for the rest of my life. And — he knows, Theo, he knows that I'm attracted to men because he caught me once and he can never catch me again."
"My father," Cash started. He swallowed. "There are — consequences for disobeying my father."
He dug his nails into the top of the desk. Not enough to gouge it, but enough to whiten the skin of his fingertips from the pressure. He had to stay here, in this conversation, grounded. How was he ever going to marry her if he couldn't do this?
There was a conversation he didn't remember. He'd only really explained this once before, and he'd been half-drunk and his palms were sweating, and it hadn't felt nearly as close. Seven years ago, maybe, when he was nineteen and he wasn't broken yet and Quidditch had felt forever.
"I swore a Vow when I was seventeen," Cash said, haltingly. But after that the words spilled out all at once, a sad panicked rush.
"And it felt like my only option, because — you don't leave the Lestrange family. I'll be under my father's thumb —" he'd said this before, it echoed in his mouth "— for the rest of my life. And — he knows, Theo, he knows that I'm attracted to men because he caught me once and he can never catch me again."
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