At the tone of voice the quickness of his response relief poured through her, her muscles loosened from the tightness she had not realized had gripped them and she was able to peek at his face. As she did she realized he didn't mean the lessons, but rather the conversation. But with how nervous she had been she was simply glad for any positive response. She felt as if she could breathe calmly now. It had been a long time since she had been this nervous over her words. Generally she was a bit, but for the most part she had seemed to master it. Yet when she was around Mr. Prewett it was as if she felt every word out of her mouth might twist and morph into a scene of absolute mortification.
With her eyes on him she saw his brow furrow and recognized the look in his eye from the night at the Sanditon Resort and it startled her. He was concerned? But the thought was pushed from her mind as he stepped forward, closer to her. Her eyes focused on his face she couldn't see his body entirely, but it was a presense near her. Not a threatening one, but a calm and steady one... a protective one. The thought surprised her. Surely the only reason he might be concerned over her, or that she might mistake that as protectiveness was from a lingering responsibility after the diaster at Sanidton.
But then he spoke and Malou had no idea what to say. It had to be the blush, she reasoned, it was the only outward sign of her own nerves. But she couldn't respond 'oh yes, quite, I'm just terribly nervous that every word I say to you will make you realize I'm not worth the time to talk to.' And yet if she replied she didn't feel well to hide the actual truth well, then Mr. Prewett would depart and something inside her desperately did not want to loose his company so soon. She fought to keep her thoughts from showing on her face, from the panic and nerves widening her eyes.
Mr. Prewett stepped closer and for a moment Malou thought he would touch her, her stomach leapt at the thought - but then his hand fell back to his side and she was left with his inquiring gaze, the concern on his brow. She was entirely inadequate in conversation, yet another reason why she should hold no hope. Then why did she want him to have reached out to her? Why did his concern make her feel as if she were safe?
She had to say something, had to keep him from thinking she were seriously ill or worse yet - unsound of the mind. "Oh no, I'm fine -" Her blush was deepening with his increased attentions which did nothing for her case so she blurted the first thing she could think of, "It's just that it is a tad warm in here."
If she were the type of girl his family would want for him she would likely have a fan at the ready to wave coyly in her face at this moment and bat her eyelashes. But she wasn't that type of girl. She didn't simmer and she didn't know the reparte of a ballroom. She was Marie-Louise Skovgaard. Shy, quiet, and feeling as if she were all of sixteen again. As if all the work to get over her shyness, to suceed in her given path had all vanished in the span of talking to Mr. Prewett. She needed to find herself again, to rememeber how easy her conversations with him were. It was just so hard when she realized she actually cared what he thought of her. She hadn't cared in such a long time. She hadn't wanted marriage or the social scene, and now, well she couldn't even pretend she didn't care if she saw Mr. Prewett or not -becauseif she were candid with herself she know that she very much wished she could see him every day.
With her eyes on him she saw his brow furrow and recognized the look in his eye from the night at the Sanditon Resort and it startled her. He was concerned? But the thought was pushed from her mind as he stepped forward, closer to her. Her eyes focused on his face she couldn't see his body entirely, but it was a presense near her. Not a threatening one, but a calm and steady one... a protective one. The thought surprised her. Surely the only reason he might be concerned over her, or that she might mistake that as protectiveness was from a lingering responsibility after the diaster at Sanidton.
But then he spoke and Malou had no idea what to say. It had to be the blush, she reasoned, it was the only outward sign of her own nerves. But she couldn't respond 'oh yes, quite, I'm just terribly nervous that every word I say to you will make you realize I'm not worth the time to talk to.' And yet if she replied she didn't feel well to hide the actual truth well, then Mr. Prewett would depart and something inside her desperately did not want to loose his company so soon. She fought to keep her thoughts from showing on her face, from the panic and nerves widening her eyes.
Mr. Prewett stepped closer and for a moment Malou thought he would touch her, her stomach leapt at the thought - but then his hand fell back to his side and she was left with his inquiring gaze, the concern on his brow. She was entirely inadequate in conversation, yet another reason why she should hold no hope. Then why did she want him to have reached out to her? Why did his concern make her feel as if she were safe?
She had to say something, had to keep him from thinking she were seriously ill or worse yet - unsound of the mind. "Oh no, I'm fine -" Her blush was deepening with his increased attentions which did nothing for her case so she blurted the first thing she could think of, "It's just that it is a tad warm in here."
If she were the type of girl his family would want for him she would likely have a fan at the ready to wave coyly in her face at this moment and bat her eyelashes. But she wasn't that type of girl. She didn't simmer and she didn't know the reparte of a ballroom. She was Marie-Louise Skovgaard. Shy, quiet, and feeling as if she were all of sixteen again. As if all the work to get over her shyness, to suceed in her given path had all vanished in the span of talking to Mr. Prewett. She needed to find herself again, to rememeber how easy her conversations with him were. It was just so hard when she realized she actually cared what he thought of her. She hadn't cared in such a long time. She hadn't wanted marriage or the social scene, and now, well she couldn't even pretend she didn't care if she saw Mr. Prewett or not -becauseif she were candid with herself she know that she very much wished she could see him every day.
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