So I guess it's my turn. (The last time I did one of these, people thought it was me saying I was leaving so just clearing the air I'm not xDD) TLDR at the bottom if you don't wanna read all of this.
But anyway, hi, I'm Lady and I've been in denial. After leaving a job I absolutely hated, I was yearning for a job that I actually enjoyed and didn't feel completely burnt out and loathe. So when this new job came around, I was happy that it had a title that might help me move to another job, in addition to being a job that challenged me, but mainly just didn't leave me feeling burnt out at the end of the day.
I've realized that this job is not that, and I've been in denial about that; insistent upon the fact that it's just cause I'm new at the job that I'm tired after work now. Then it became that I was tired because we had people quit. Then it became that I was going through depressive swings and ALSO tired cause people quit. And then in the past few weeks, tired because people were fired, quit and then 1 of our team of 3 (and the longest standing employee at the branch) handed in her resignation. And now the 2nd of our team (and the person I'm closest to at work) told me she got an amazing job offer and is only staying long enough to train the new people, but until then, her schedule is changing so I only see her 1-2 times a week as opposed to 4. So now they're putting a bunch of her responsibilities on me, which I rarely have time to complete let alone my own tasks. Additionally, the rest of the employees work on a different floor than me, so I'm kind of alone by myself for most of the day and my direct manager is not in the same timezone as me.
So, it all kind of came to a head when today, I found myself arguing with the branch manager why the fork I should have to check and make sure the A/C (yeah, you read that right, air conditioning) is on every. single. hour. (8 hours a day; we also turn it off and on multiple times a day too).
But now that I realize my new job is stressing me the fork out, I can deal with it and try and get myself to calm down because at the end of the day, I'm very fortunate to have the job I do, and it's really not worth it to stress out so much about it, as infuriating as it is. It's really just a job and not something that I want to do for the rest of my life; just a stepping stone - which I acknowledge not everyone is able to say. Everyone's jobs can be stressful so I'm not trying to give you an excuse for why I've been slacking, just an explanation and an apology that I wasn't more forthcoming about it before.
I'm also sorry this became a venting session, that wasn't my intention, but thanks for sticking with me this far if you have xDD
TLDR: Didn't realize my job was making me burnt out until just this past week - I thought it was other factors at work. It's not. Now that I realize that, I can put it into perspective, and try to distribute my energy more effectively so I don't suck as much here. I'm sorry I've been slacking, but I'm trying to nip it in the bud and redirect! I love you guys and thanks for your patience <3 <3 <3
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But anyway, hi, I'm Lady and I've been in denial. After leaving a job I absolutely hated, I was yearning for a job that I actually enjoyed and didn't feel completely burnt out and loathe. So when this new job came around, I was happy that it had a title that might help me move to another job, in addition to being a job that challenged me, but mainly just didn't leave me feeling burnt out at the end of the day.
I've realized that this job is not that, and I've been in denial about that; insistent upon the fact that it's just cause I'm new at the job that I'm tired after work now. Then it became that I was tired because we had people quit. Then it became that I was going through depressive swings and ALSO tired cause people quit. And then in the past few weeks, tired because people were fired, quit and then 1 of our team of 3 (and the longest standing employee at the branch) handed in her resignation. And now the 2nd of our team (and the person I'm closest to at work) told me she got an amazing job offer and is only staying long enough to train the new people, but until then, her schedule is changing so I only see her 1-2 times a week as opposed to 4. So now they're putting a bunch of her responsibilities on me, which I rarely have time to complete let alone my own tasks. Additionally, the rest of the employees work on a different floor than me, so I'm kind of alone by myself for most of the day and my direct manager is not in the same timezone as me.
So, it all kind of came to a head when today, I found myself arguing with the branch manager why the fork I should have to check and make sure the A/C (yeah, you read that right, air conditioning) is on every. single. hour. (8 hours a day; we also turn it off and on multiple times a day too).
But now that I realize my new job is stressing me the fork out, I can deal with it and try and get myself to calm down because at the end of the day, I'm very fortunate to have the job I do, and it's really not worth it to stress out so much about it, as infuriating as it is. It's really just a job and not something that I want to do for the rest of my life; just a stepping stone - which I acknowledge not everyone is able to say. Everyone's jobs can be stressful so I'm not trying to give you an excuse for why I've been slacking, just an explanation and an apology that I wasn't more forthcoming about it before.
I'm also sorry this became a venting session, that wasn't my intention, but thanks for sticking with me this far if you have xDD
TLDR: Didn't realize my job was making me burnt out until just this past week - I thought it was other factors at work. It's not. Now that I realize that, I can put it into perspective, and try to distribute my energy more effectively so I don't suck as much here. I'm sorry I've been slacking, but I'm trying to nip it in the bud and redirect! I love you guys and thanks for your patience <3 <3 <3
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