March 26th, 1891 — Ireland
The change from midmorning yesterday to now was almost a complete reversal. He had been spinning out, and he'd known it, though he hadn't even known why. After Art had left, though, the letters started to arrive. First from Mr. Blanc — someone related to Macmillan, he still assumed, or the man himself — then from Macmillan's mother. They were scared, and that bolstered his spirits — he was scared, too, but he hadn't written frantic letters to anyone on their side trying to get things called off. So Macmillan was more worried about this than Ben was, and that was as it should be. Ben was the better dueler, and honor was on his side, and Macmillan should be scared. Nothing was going to happen — Ben had this in hand.
He'd talked to Aldous about the letter from Mrs. Macmillan, just to be sure, but his brother had told him the same thing that he'd already been thinking. Aldous hadn't even made an attempt to talk him out of it, which meant he had to go through with it. Aldous would have talked him out of it if there was any reason to call it off. If there had been a credible threat that he might be arrested, or an actual risk that he would die, Aldous would have wanted him to back out. He had his brother's blessing for this, though, and Aldous and Roman would back him up if anything went south. Valerian Macnair was going to be on hand to heal him if something happened. Everything was going to be fine, and the adrenaline of what he was about to do was carrying him through his preparation that morning with spirits high.
Well, the adrenaline and the small amount of cocaine he'd taken that morning as he shaved. Not enough to take him out of the moment, but just enough to leave him a little buzzed, to up his pain tolerance and sharpen his thoughts. He didn't use cocaine often, but he knew enough people who did that it hadn't been hard to find yesterday. And if ever there was a moment for it, this was it.
The sun wasn't up yet, but the sky was brightening. "Any minute now," Ben said to Art, chewing his thumbnail and pacing idly at the top of the hill.
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