It was a good answer. It meant he could ascribe the way each of her expressions was carved in sharp relief into his mind to something extrinsic. The static electricity that tingled over his skin and through his chest when she said his name might have been the lingering impacts of the magic. He could pretend he was only enchanted, not obsessed, and that this explained everything. It removed the element of guilt he had over not having already cut this interaction short. He couldn't be held responsible for the way he felt if what he was feeling was magically induced.
"I've been trying to replicate it," he admitted, taking another drag of the cigarette. When he exhaled some of the tension left his shoulders. "Unsuccessfully, so far." Changing the subject felt appropriate. There was nothing more to discuss about the two of them, or at least nothing that could be said in such a public forum. Talking about something else also relieved some of the emotional pressure of the conversation; he could make a comment here, perhaps, without giving anything away or ceding any ground to her in this invisible power struggle.
He watched her for a second, then glanced at his cigarette. Mentally, he allowed himself the time it would take to smoke it to linger in this moment, making idle conversation. When he finished his cigarette, he would make an excuse to say goodbye. He wouldn't be back at one of her performances for some time, and by then perhaps his attachment to her would have weakened enough that he wasn't tempted to read each time she made eye contact as an unspoken question.
"I've been trying to replicate it," he admitted, taking another drag of the cigarette. When he exhaled some of the tension left his shoulders. "Unsuccessfully, so far." Changing the subject felt appropriate. There was nothing more to discuss about the two of them, or at least nothing that could be said in such a public forum. Talking about something else also relieved some of the emotional pressure of the conversation; he could make a comment here, perhaps, without giving anything away or ceding any ground to her in this invisible power struggle.
He watched her for a second, then glanced at his cigarette. Mentally, he allowed himself the time it would take to smoke it to linger in this moment, making idle conversation. When he finished his cigarette, he would make an excuse to say goodbye. He wouldn't be back at one of her performances for some time, and by then perhaps his attachment to her would have weakened enough that he wasn't tempted to read each time she made eye contact as an unspoken question.
MJ is the light of my life <3