Lachlan shifted uncomfortably on his feet, one hand coming up to rub the length of his other arm. To get into the specifics would mean he'd have to divulge his own insecurities, his own fears, and those were a bit too - intimate, given that it was likely that this conversation would be their last of its kind. He thought that every time they spoke, but this time felt different. He'd hurt her feelings and she'd hurt his, and they'd kissed and it didn't seem like she'd really enjoyed it, but resuming a normal acquaintanceship would be difficult given that he wasn't likely to forget the feeling of her lips anytime soon.
"I don't know," he said evasively, shaking his head. "I don't know what I mean. Only that - I would have kissed you differently, if I'd known it was your first at the time." Not in his kitchen, not after their bickering, not in a spur-of-the-moment decision to get her to stop talking. Really he might not have kissed her at all; it wasn't as though he'd had anything to base kissing her off of except the tension in the air at the time. Only afterwards had he overthought it, allowing her to consume his thoughts when he shouldn't have, which is how he'd reached this point. He'd been hopeful, as if there was some chance that she might like him, and that—at least for a little while—he might not feel so lonely.
"I don't know," he said evasively, shaking his head. "I don't know what I mean. Only that - I would have kissed you differently, if I'd known it was your first at the time." Not in his kitchen, not after their bickering, not in a spur-of-the-moment decision to get her to stop talking. Really he might not have kissed her at all; it wasn't as though he'd had anything to base kissing her off of except the tension in the air at the time. Only afterwards had he overthought it, allowing her to consume his thoughts when he shouldn't have, which is how he'd reached this point. He'd been hopeful, as if there was some chance that she might like him, and that—at least for a little while—he might not feel so lonely.
— way too attractive set by mj <3 —