She ought to tell Ari, definitely, because it was the good and honest thing to do, but she'd tried before and - failed. She hadn't even mentioned to Zelda how she'd fooled Ari into thinking she wanted another child, which was probably worse than withholding information about her correspondence and visits with Ben, because that was toying with his emotions in a way she definitely ought not to have.
Dionisia shifted uncomfortably in her chair. Of course, Ari could very well tell her he wanted a divorce and that Elliott was his and anything along those lines, but she knew it would be out-of-character based on the sides of him he'd shown her. Somehow the thought that popped into her mind next was somehow worse than any of those options. "But what if he tells me to... stop?" There was something more unsettling about the idea of Ari exerting authority over her than the idea of Ari leaving her. Their marriage wasn't perfect, but one of its saving graces was the independence she was allowed; she did not typically have to ask Ari's permission to do anything unless it involved spending unusual amounts of money, and he never told her to not do anything. If he suddenly did—what then would be left of her marital comforts?
That was one of the main reasons she'd never wanted to marry before Elliott: she did not like being told what she could or could not do.
"What would I even say to that?" she asked, hoping for a more practical answer than emotional support.
Dionisia shifted uncomfortably in her chair. Of course, Ari could very well tell her he wanted a divorce and that Elliott was his and anything along those lines, but she knew it would be out-of-character based on the sides of him he'd shown her. Somehow the thought that popped into her mind next was somehow worse than any of those options. "But what if he tells me to... stop?" There was something more unsettling about the idea of Ari exerting authority over her than the idea of Ari leaving her. Their marriage wasn't perfect, but one of its saving graces was the independence she was allowed; she did not typically have to ask Ari's permission to do anything unless it involved spending unusual amounts of money, and he never told her to not do anything. If he suddenly did—what then would be left of her marital comforts?
That was one of the main reasons she'd never wanted to marry before Elliott: she did not like being told what she could or could not do.
"What would I even say to that?" she asked, hoping for a more practical answer than emotional support.
