Oh how I wish I knew, Luce, I really do. It's not for lack of trying, but Merlin it's been two years! What if there's something wrong with me? Mother had six children no problems, why am I not so fortunate? Even Philip has mentioned it a time or two and I honestly don't know what to tell him. What if we never have children? I can't imagine what I'll do!

I apologize, I know you probably sent that in jest and I don't meant to spout worry all over you, but it's been at the forefront of my mind for a long time.