She was grateful he couldn’t see her face at this angle, as mortifying as it was, a few more tears leaked from her eyes when he verbally confirmed his safety. She wasn’t sure if she could feel his heartbeat through the layers between them or if her own was still running so wild, it beat for them both.
She listened intently, hoping to gain insight into her errors, to learn how to protect them should he ever allow her an opportunity to try again. “Now I know you flatter.” She scolded, when he gave her the opportunity to interject. There was no possible way she had done something of note and certainly nothing novel. How could she? This was only her second attempt at transmutation. She was running on instinct and impulses.
She was silent after he admitted fault. Her pride could not square it with her vision of reality. She was the one that reached for him, pulled his magic in. Had he truly had control or was this a matter of absolution? It changed her feel on the matter some, but not in the way he most likely intended. She was not angry, if the result had been an honest expression of his magic. What scared her to her core was the matter of choice.
Before he could continue, she had to know. “You say I called and you supplied. Did you have a choice or did I,” Merlin, she could taste the bile as she fought to ask. “Did I force you to act?” It was the heart of the matter, she realized. Did she harm him in ways beyond the physical? As he’d shown her, magic was so individual and inherent. To have it commanded by another, without your consent? What had she done?
Samuel continued on, praised her as if something was accomplished. ‘Baffled’ was the polite word for the combination of confusion, exhaustion, and skepticism she currently held. She had no rage for him, no anger at their state. If, somehow, he had control amidst that magical whirlwind of pain, she would not doubt him. Except, she did. She doubted that she was free from blame in this.
“You are calling that a success? I redecorated your office, Samuel. I nearly used us as paint.” She managed that amount of incredulous observation. Her own concerns ebbed when she heard the unspoken words behind his addition. What they had done was extraordinary, but if that was true, what in the hell was wrong with his peers? Something had gone wrong when Samuel tried this in the past and the result was unfortunate. She would not press him for details.
She would not push, but her hand locked tighter around his as she risked a look over her shoulder. She nodded, not certain how he intended to relocate them, considering she was certain her legs still were not interested in her direction.
”Please. I can call for food and Wiggenweld from the house elves.” Themis didn’t hesitate before calling for Tilly. Themis had met the house elf her second year of Hogwarts when exploring the dungeons. She’d developed a bit of report with the she-elf, had been curious about her and her time at Hogwarts. Themis would like to think they were friendly. When she returned to the castle as an adult, she had sought the elf out, thrilled to know she was still at the school and that Themis had been remembered for her kindness.
It was this kindness and discretion she asked for now, as she summoned the elf. Tilly had made quite a fuss over the scene she arrived at, but Themis assured her of both of their safety, thanked the elf when she banished the shattered glass. Themis requested the simple healing draughts, a meal, and one of the bottles of French wine she had in reserve be brought to them. The tray, as well as an abundance of unexpected sweets (Themis’ favorite), and a bowl of steaming water and clothes appeared in Samuel’s rooms before witch or wizard were able to move.
With great care, she extracted herself from his hold, suddenly uncomfortable with the distance between them. She reached for his hand as she rose, firmly ignoring the amount of effort it took to get to her feet. When they had both made it safely to his private rooms, Themis grabbed and downed a healing potion before sinking into a seat. If she had difficulty releasing his hand, she chose to ignore it. She slid a potion his direction and, quickly, reached for a cloth and the warm water. ”Come here, I’ve made a mess of you.” It was an understatement, but the least she could do, was see to his welfare.