16 November, 1892 — London Ballet
Part of the reason why Oz had abandoned early drafts of his letter to Sophia Voss after the ball was that he couldn't decide what it was he wanted to explain to her. A week later, he still hadn't worked it out. How much ought he to reveal? How much did she really want to know? She had made her point perfectly clearly that he needed to offer something of himself if he expected her to do the same, and it was clear that the two of them couldn't continue to see each other unless they were more careful with how they proceeded. He needed to know who her connections were within society, rather than assuming he would never find her there. On the other hand, he was under no illusion that she would want to hear everything. There was a reason she'd never asked about his wife before, surely. It would have been unappealing in the extreme if he had used their time together to air out dirty laundry.
He'd decided that he would let her take the lead with questions, and hope that she didn't ask him whether or not he loved his wife. People generally didn't ask him that, given what they all knew of the Dempseys' behavior towards each other at social events, but it was perhaps a natural question for someone in her position. Ozymandias wasn't sure what expectations, if any, Sophia had about his level of regard for her. She had comported herself throughout all their previous interactions like the sort of woman who did this all the time, but as her last letter had pointed out that wasn't true at all. He had admitted to being obsessed with her during their liaison in the manager's office; perhaps she had made the leap from obsessed to some other adjective. Perhaps she felt she had a claim to his feelings, and reason to be justifiably jealous of any strong show of emotion, positive or negative, directed at Thomasina.
She didn't, of course. This was a casual affair, he had convinced himself. What Ozymandias had originally classed as guilt the night of the ball he had since redefined as merely a symptom of being surprised to see her. He had no reason to feel guilty about interacting with his wife in whatever way he saw fit. She had no true grounds to be angry, but he could weather her being annoyed at him and make whatever small explanations and minor apologies were required to move past it. He'd indicated to one of the staff that he expected to stay at the club tonight and not to expect him back home; in actuality he expected to end the night in her arms, after they'd reconciled. He did not entertain any thought of the future that did not end in their putting this unpleasantness firmly to bed by the end of the evening.
He'd debated buying her jewelry to expedite the process of forgiveness, but remembered how she'd bristled early on in their interactions when he'd offered regular gifts in exchange for her company. She didn't want to feel bought, so anything too lavish might backfire and create more strife. He'd foregone flowers as well, but brought a bottle of quality wine. He apparated into the empty audience of the theater — partly because it was chivalrous not to apparate directly into a ladies' rooms no matter the situation, and partly because he'd only been in her dressing room while under the influence of strange magic and some intoxication and didn't fancy splinching himself whilst trying to recall the room in fine enough detail to apparate. The theater felt bigger in the dark, with only the solitary ghost light dangling over the stage. Ominous. He hurried to her dressing room.
"Sophia," he greeted after knocking on her door. "You have wine glasses, I hope? I didn't think to bring any."
He'd decided that he would let her take the lead with questions, and hope that she didn't ask him whether or not he loved his wife. People generally didn't ask him that, given what they all knew of the Dempseys' behavior towards each other at social events, but it was perhaps a natural question for someone in her position. Ozymandias wasn't sure what expectations, if any, Sophia had about his level of regard for her. She had comported herself throughout all their previous interactions like the sort of woman who did this all the time, but as her last letter had pointed out that wasn't true at all. He had admitted to being obsessed with her during their liaison in the manager's office; perhaps she had made the leap from obsessed to some other adjective. Perhaps she felt she had a claim to his feelings, and reason to be justifiably jealous of any strong show of emotion, positive or negative, directed at Thomasina.
She didn't, of course. This was a casual affair, he had convinced himself. What Ozymandias had originally classed as guilt the night of the ball he had since redefined as merely a symptom of being surprised to see her. He had no reason to feel guilty about interacting with his wife in whatever way he saw fit. She had no true grounds to be angry, but he could weather her being annoyed at him and make whatever small explanations and minor apologies were required to move past it. He'd indicated to one of the staff that he expected to stay at the club tonight and not to expect him back home; in actuality he expected to end the night in her arms, after they'd reconciled. He did not entertain any thought of the future that did not end in their putting this unpleasantness firmly to bed by the end of the evening.
He'd debated buying her jewelry to expedite the process of forgiveness, but remembered how she'd bristled early on in their interactions when he'd offered regular gifts in exchange for her company. She didn't want to feel bought, so anything too lavish might backfire and create more strife. He'd foregone flowers as well, but brought a bottle of quality wine. He apparated into the empty audience of the theater — partly because it was chivalrous not to apparate directly into a ladies' rooms no matter the situation, and partly because he'd only been in her dressing room while under the influence of strange magic and some intoxication and didn't fancy splinching himself whilst trying to recall the room in fine enough detail to apparate. The theater felt bigger in the dark, with only the solitary ghost light dangling over the stage. Ominous. He hurried to her dressing room.
"Sophia," he greeted after knocking on her door. "You have wine glasses, I hope? I didn't think to bring any."

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