Zach would despise her if she left again. Gone would be any sympathy, kindess or generosity. To have summoned him here and abandon him without any explanation for either would be the last straw. Jo had to see this through, even if telling him now frightened her to no end.
The dam burst then, it was the only way to describe the sudden desperate nature of her ramble. "You have to understand, I didn't know when I left." Not truly, not in any way that made sense. Even if she had known it wouldn't have altered the situation. Jo would have found a potion or spell to rid herself of the baby and then leave, which now having met and loved upon Ilona filled her with shame. "I didn't know for months, really. Not until it was impossible to ignore anymore." The day her dress became too tight to lace comfortably was the day she fell apart with the realization. By then it was midsummer and there was nothing left to do but wait for the baby to arrive.
"I wasn't sure I was going to keep her, either. I even went as far as to find a family that would adopt her. They were kind people, she would've been okay with them. But then she was here and I couldn't bear to part from her, however selfish a decision that was." She still hadn't said the piece that would tie the realization together for him. However, when Jo went to at the end of her ramble her throat was so dry no other words would come.
The dam burst then, it was the only way to describe the sudden desperate nature of her ramble. "You have to understand, I didn't know when I left." Not truly, not in any way that made sense. Even if she had known it wouldn't have altered the situation. Jo would have found a potion or spell to rid herself of the baby and then leave, which now having met and loved upon Ilona filled her with shame. "I didn't know for months, really. Not until it was impossible to ignore anymore." The day her dress became too tight to lace comfortably was the day she fell apart with the realization. By then it was midsummer and there was nothing left to do but wait for the baby to arrive.
"I wasn't sure I was going to keep her, either. I even went as far as to find a family that would adopt her. They were kind people, she would've been okay with them. But then she was here and I couldn't bear to part from her, however selfish a decision that was." She still hadn't said the piece that would tie the realization together for him. However, when Jo went to at the end of her ramble her throat was so dry no other words would come.
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