Cash nodded. "We weren't even together for most of our adulthood, although we were when he died," he said, quiet. He wasn't sure of what he was trying to say, just that he wanted to tell Theo about Eli. Cash was not even sure if the two would like each other. It was strange to think of Eli and Theo as coexisting; the version of Cash that had been with Eli was so different than the one that had been with Theo.

He wished he had not already pushed up his sleeves. He wanted to worry with something, and all he could do was rub the pads of his fingers against each other.

"It felt as if — it feels as if — he deserved to live more than I did," Cash admitted, studying the wall past Theo.