I can't imagine Mrs. Bixby ever turning you away. If anything, I would think your presence would be a comfort in a way - some sort of tangible proof that not everything has changed. I certainly wouldn't disappear from their lives altogether. I'd also understand if you kept it to infrequent visits though. Being there without Sloane - I simply can't imagine it. It would be like being in the dorm and her not being there.

Is it wrong that I'm selfishly grateful to have left school before having to face such a reality? Maddy, Sisse, Alycone and you are all living it on a daily basis. I don't know.

I think grief is selfish more often than we'd like it to be.

As for Dahlia - you spent more time with her unmarried than Ama or Senna. Of course her being married would be a stranger concept than them. Think about how weird it'll be when she has children. But I'll be happy to see her either way.