The pain redoubled at his words and now the tears were coming down again. Mutely Sisse nodded, standing up from her chair and turning away from him, trying to hide how much it hurt to lose him yet again. But that was the thing, she'd lost him before. She hadn't lost Sloane before and what she'd said to Lester was true, she couldn't bear to hold out hope only to have her world devastated again. So while she wished for nothing more than to rush to Lester to beg him not to leave she was too embarrassed, to hurt, to allow herself to move even an inch toward him