He didn't know if Hudson apologizing made it better or worse. Hudson wasn't the one at fault here; he wasn't the one who had apologies to make. Don Juan was the guilty party, and he couldn't apologize in any meaningful way, not when his credibility was already entirely shot through. Of course Hudson couldn't do this any more, of course he couldn't stay. He couldn't believe a single thing that came out of Don Juan's mouth, trust being what it was.

"No, I know," he said in a rush, as though he wanted to cut Dean off from any more explanations. He rubbed the heel of his hand against one of his eyes, trying desperately not to get visibly teary. "I'd just keep fucking it up, anyway."

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