It's likely just me and my personality, but I can't understand sailing as a hobby. It seems boring, I think is the best way to put it, to not experience a new destination. A small stretch of sea, harbor or lake can only bring one so much joy.

Be prepared for both absolute joy and exhaustion once he's truly mobile. The baby babble is fun though. Ilona is beginning to speak more these days, though most of it is her shouting for her little wooden bird. Zach charmed it to fly and it often goes too high for her.

It's not, but you're right. I also wouldn't wish to condemn him to such a life. He's too good of a man and I'm me. He deserves every happiness and that wouldn't be found in a marriage to me that is anything less than a true marriage.

I sometimes wish he would have found someone else in our time apart. Then they could have claimed Ilona as their own and I could've stepped back knowing she was safe and cared for. That was always my intention for her, to be loved upon by another mother. And then I held her and simply couldn't le-

Anyway, barring any complications I'll be back after the 22nd and won't be leaving again for a bit.

Jo

  

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