Cash's response made Ford briefly consider climbing out his own window. He'd done this to himself; he'd asked. He was now definitely wishing that he hadn't, and wondering what Cash must have thought of him, and would have nothing to do now but continue fretting about what Cash must have thought of him until the subject came up again.
"For her," he clarified hastily. "I'm not worried about —" But he obviously did not want to finish that sentence, so instead he cut off abruptly and took a drink. Following that he topped off his glass from the bottle, then passed it to Cash, his shoulders sagging in an unspoken apology.
"I'm worried about the first time," he admitted. "That I'll fuck it up once, and then get stuck there forever."
He was worried about a lot of other things, too, when it came to the wedding night: that she had already been with someone else she liked more than him; that someone had taken advantage of her and she would be traumatized and not want him to ever touch her; that he'd spend the whole time feeling guilty about Tycho. But this was a concern that made the list, too; that she might just find the experience entirely underwhelming and lose interest in any future endeavors, and he would be condemned to a bad sex for the rest of his life.
"For her," he clarified hastily. "I'm not worried about —" But he obviously did not want to finish that sentence, so instead he cut off abruptly and took a drink. Following that he topped off his glass from the bottle, then passed it to Cash, his shoulders sagging in an unspoken apology.
"I'm worried about the first time," he admitted. "That I'll fuck it up once, and then get stuck there forever."
He was worried about a lot of other things, too, when it came to the wedding night: that she had already been with someone else she liked more than him; that someone had taken advantage of her and she would be traumatized and not want him to ever touch her; that he'd spend the whole time feeling guilty about Tycho. But this was a concern that made the list, too; that she might just find the experience entirely underwhelming and lose interest in any future endeavors, and he would be condemned to a bad sex for the rest of his life.
Set by Lady!