Trixie had honestly put this off for far too long.
"Oh, I don't mind the wait...thank you, for seeing me, Dr. Pomfrey," she said softly. This was a drastic change from her usual chipper self, but then, most people don't visit the doctor nearly out of the blue without some sort of reasoning to be less than...enthusiastic. Yet even still, in Trixie's previous visits to the office (which were usually just regular checks to make sure she was healthy on a cursory level), she had always had a quiet enthusiasm to her.
This was different. This was anxiety.
"I...well, I..." Trixie tried to begin, but the words seemed to catch in her throat. And even though she was already an adult, a young woman, she asked, like a teenager who's about to misbehave, "You won't tell my mother what I say, will you?"
"Oh," she says, both embarrassed and a bit dejected by the thought that her father might notice that there'd been a visit to the doctor's. Of course there would be financial evidence of the visit happening. Of course. That only made sense.
But that did answer her question, regardless. This was...somewhat of a safe space in which her troubles could be potentially alleviated. And of course, she was no liar.
Beatrix took a deep breath, and spoke. "As you'll recall, I attended finishing school in Paris," she begins, "and, of course, during my time there, I made some...acquaintances. One of them...he claimed to be a gentleman, I assure you...well, he visited recently...and he led me to believe he intended to propose...so I..." Her cheeks flushed, and she bit her lip, averting her gaze. The implication of her shame was quite clear.
Bea wished that was all she'd done.
"He...we...Doctor, I laid with him," she said, trying to explain through the anxiety and panic. "In the moment, it felt wonderful, and then it hurt, and then we fell asleep. When I awoke, he was gone, and all he left was a note, thanking me. I..."
She wiped at her cheek abruptly, casting aside a tear that escaped. She did not want to appear weak, despite the fact she knew she was. She'd given it all up so easily...
She accepted the handkerchief without protest or hesitation, gently blotting at her eyes as Dr. Pomfrey spoke. Merlin, she hadn't even considered the possibility of discovery until — until Anne had informed her of the likely result.
"I fear it's more than mere concern," Beatrix began softly, her voice thick with emotion. "One of the housemaids, Anne, her mother is a midwife, and her sisters are in training to become the same. She told me the...the details, and has been...helping me, to keep things...hidden." It made Beatrix feel guilty, implicating her housemaid, who was so incredibly kind, in this whole ordeal.
Still. The man before her was her doctor. It was only right that he know the details of how severely she had deviated from the path laid out before her from birth.
"I fear I may be beyond help."
She knew that much, at least. It may have not happened frequently, but it had happened before — not to anyone Beatrix knew, of course, but Society types loved their gossip. It took a significant effort not to burst out in another wave of tears as she considered her station.
"So I am to be ruined, then?" she asked after a moment. "I have no current suitors, and I dare not tell Mother or Father of this...condition." She sighed heavily, wringing his handkerchief in her hands. "I can't believe I was so stupid. So...naive." She didn't say it, but suddenly, she wondered how many other young ladies had been tossed aside into ruin by this one man...
Leave it with him.
Beatrix could barely fathom the idea of leaving this matter in his hands, but what choice did she have? She wasn't the type of person who would seek out something drastic, never had been, but this...Merlin, she'd really messed her own life up, hadn't she? There was nothing to be done for it.
Monsieur Courtmanche had ruined her...no. She had ruined herself.
To her own surprise, as she came to this realization, she did not burst into another fit of tears. She dabbed at her cheeks again, just in case, and slowly rose to her feet. She would probably cry more later. For now... "Thank you, Dr. Pomfrey," Beatrix said, her voice quiet, resolved. But to what, she didn't know. "I suppose I shall see you in three days' time."
The idea of complications makes Bea pause, and for a moment, she's about to say something else. But she thinks better of it, nods, and says, "Thank you, again, Dr. Pomfrey."