Ishmael felt a pang at you, because he wanted to believe it, he really did. But he also felt a twinge of guilt at Monty’s eagerness to give up all the rest of it; Ishmael knew he might make it seem like he was blasé about living this way, like there were only upsides to being a vampire, but... there were downsides too. And how would he feel, if Monty ever came to regret the choice? Or worse, one day blamed him for it? Never mind the yawning, meaningless shape life took when it was too long, never mind the difficulties of drinking blood or lacking magic or existing in a world where everyone was suspicious of or outright hostile to you: there were human things to miss. Ishmael was too old already to remember some of them, but even something as simple as the sun on his skin was another thing Monty would lose. Ishmael had learned to like his life - had learned to make the best of it - but he was less sure, presently, whether it was truly something he wanted to make anyone else face forever.
But he had to snort aloud at young and virile, had to sit up now and perch, a little tensely, on the side of the bed to properly exhibit his utter disbelief. If this was going to be a fight, better have it face to face. Monty was still in his twenties, for Merlin’s sake, he had a whole long life stretching out in front of him and he wasn’t going to go bald or decrepit or die tomorrow, fucking hell, there wasn’t a rush. (He almost wouldn’t be surprised if Monty was talking about now and meaning tonight by it.)
“So why not in another decade or two? Or three?” Ishmael retorted, with a little more acrimony in his mouth than he had perhaps intended. “Since you’re so confident we’ll make it there.” How long had they been together, really together? A year or two, a few years more in the same gang of thieves: but what Monty didn’t understand was that was nothing, Ishmael had known people for longer stints than that before things had gone terribly sour one way or another, and that was when they’d still been human. “Or was I just meant to be your shortcut to eternal youth? Was that the long con here?”